What's on my mind right now?? School... My daughter starts school in August, and I feel like it's time that I start too. I'm a single mom of an almost 6 year old. I'm 25. I haven't set foot inside a school since I was 17, and the thought of going back is both exciting and terrifying. Since I was 14 in high school, I've always been a quitter, a drop out. Although I wish I hadn't been, I was. And I am terrified that if I got back to school, my biggest fear will hit me, and I will have to face the reality that I am no different now than I was in high school--a quitter. But I'd be excited because I know I would be bettering myself for me and my daughter. And it would be great to have degrees to fall back on. Call me crazy, but I feel guilty that if I go back to school now, while my daughter is still a child (while she needs me still) that I am being unfair to her and deserting her. Sometimes I feel it is best to wait until she older to better fend for herself. Still at the same time, I feel that I should do something with my life NOW!! I'm a mess...very unsure of what I should do right now. I don't even know where I would begin to go to school. There's so many things I want to do. I am trying to decide between cosmotology school , massage therapy, or medical assistant. I feel like it's all moving too fast and I can't catch up to speed.....
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